I WAS CALLED UGLY BECAUSE I DO NOT HAVE A BOYFRIEND
It was a horrible state of my life.
The words, and people around me made me feel "so less" about myself.
I never saw anything good about me.
I allowed the negative words hurled at me to become a part of me.
I was called ugly because I do not have a boyfriend. I believed those lies and kept saying negative words to myself whenever I look in the mirror.
I compared myself to the models, and celebrities I see on Magazines and TV screen. I began a relationship because I wanted to “feel among”, not because it was the right time. I wanted someone to tell me; You're beautiful.
How stupid of me! I would stay up all night during the days of “MTN free midnight calls” because, I don't want to lose him. It wasn't convenient for me, but I couldn't even tell him. Then, I either sleep or doze during lecture hours. I was practically a shadow of myself.
Haa! God punish low self-esteem. If he dare complain about how lean I look, I began to take Multivitamins and eat all sorts to gain weight. And, when he complains about how chubby I was becoming, I will fast for days.
I couldn't dare to miss his calls. To avoid insults and hurtful words.
The emotional and verbal abuse was much. I was suffering and dying, but couldn't let go because I also want to be able to discuss about my boyfriend when in the midst of friends.
I was in that relationship simply because of the BEAST called Low self-esteem. I was seeking external validations to confirm my WORTH!
Are you like me?
In a wrong relationship where you're emotionally abused?
Please, let go.
Quitting the relationship may not come easily, but it's ONE of the best decisions you will make this year.
Oh! Your fears...
I perfectly understand.
You think you won't meet/find a BETTER person?
That's the BIGGEST lie of the century.
Yes, it is.
I repeat... It is the BIGGEST lie ever.😊
There's someone out there who will treat you like a KING or QUEEN that you are.
The ONE who will cherish and adore you.
To get free from the BEAST; Low self-esteem. Please, speak out. Talk to someone. It could be a Therapist, Trusted person, Counselor. It will greatly help you to make the right decision in your next relationship. You won't be going there for the wrong reasons to avoid repeating same mistakes.
In all thy getting, build a Positive self-esteem. Knowing your WORTH gives you the ability to say NO to the wrong person/relationship.